Deteriotion and "THAT" Woman

Yea yea… I haven’t been here . Not really much to say though.

I have been falling sick a lot lately. I guess my health is deteriorating. I fell sick last week, got slightly better and fell sick again over the weekend. Eventually that is when it got worse. Coughing non-stop, nose kept dripping, fever coming and going. I went to the doctor on Sunday night. They tell me the same old thing when I ask, why do I keep falling sick, “Throat Inflammation, your Immune system is bad” Yeah so if you can say that, HOW ABOUT DOING SOMETHING TO LIKE MAKE MY IMMUNE SYSTEM GOOD?! Sheesh .
Well, they stuck me with a bundle of pills and send me home with an MC for Monday. Pop pills, still coughing like the world is coming to an end (oh wait, me coming to an end ), nose dripping like water tap leakage… Go back to work on Tuesday still feeling pathetically ill… Wake up on Wednesday with fever, coughing got worse, nose blocked, throat hurts and to the doctor again I went. Doctor threw me another bundle of pills which is stronger from the previous batch (More pills to choke down my poor aching throat). Oh I lost my voice with all the coughing. I sound sexy now .
(The funny part of visiting the doctor the second time) It isn’t the normal doctor that is for sure, the regular one is a Singh and the one replacing him is a Chinese called Dr. Khoo. Well, when I went in and sat down, I was already coughing non stop, he looked at me and kind of back a little away from me (ROFL!). When he checked my throat… (You know when they hold the torchlight thing and that ice cream look alike stick to hold down your tongue… YES THAT!) he was so far away I wonder if he really saw my throat (DOUBLE ROFL!) . Even when I told my colleagues today they were laughing (ROFL ROFL ROFL ). So much for being a DOCTOR.

Right that’s about me being sick. Who wants to hear my sexy voice?! Ok maybe not .


Now to vent anger… So tell me, who would like that someone have problems with you or issues but she kept being nice to you all the time without you knowing she had issues towards you? What’s worse is that person already broke your trust once. Well, I don’t!

This woman whom I thought is my friend, but to find out later that she never did like me from the very first day she met me, accuses me of things I did not do but yet she treats me nice like anybody else until I found out of course, everything between us went sour. That’s the first time, but when I found out, I lost my trust in her. So just recently, she was again being all nice to me as though like everything is ok again… since she is friends with my other two friends who are close to her; and after all they say she is really trying to change; I decided to give her another chance… slowly she gained my trust by a little and out of a sudden, she threw that same mean bitch attitude towards me again… but this indirectly! I am not freaking stupid for sure… But since my other friend told me not to start a fight I just told her off “If you hate me so much just say it and not act like you like me!” and left. Honestly, I am not just angry… I am hurt and disappointed as well. It isn’t easy for me to trust people, and when that person breaks my trust, it is not easy to gain it back either. She got that chance to gain my trust back because my other two friends convinced me she is changing. So before the old pain could heal, she made more damage to the wound. I feel so stupid that I trusted the same person wrongly twice and get hurt.
I told my other two friends that she will not get that chance with me anymore and she isn’t going to get any respect from me either. In anytime, I feel like she is wrong, I will just tell her off. I feel bad though that my two friends are stuck in the middle of that woman and me. I don’t know what to do really… if I treat that woman badly my two friends will have to face her, but if I don’t means I am giving in to her. I thought of leaving my two friends so I don’t get them involve in any situation that woman and I would go through, but it is right? Wouldn’t that make her win as well? What should I do? Can anyone tell me?
I just wish that woman would just be dead or just of my life.


Ok, I think I have said enough. Tune in for more of me . I will go shower now. I will blog again next time.

Fort Minor ~ Where’d You Go

Flash Back

Monday, 5th June 2006:

Has anyone ever had their skirt or pants zipper undone in public? Well I just have that happen to me . I was walking to work and felt that I was kind of getting wind at the back of my skirt where the zipper was. So I reach for my zip to my surprise it is slightly undone, almost half my zipper . The worse part, , there’s a guy right behind me . I thought to myself “Great. How did my zipper get undone?” and slowly pushes it up but did not manage all because my left hand was holding my water bottle, my breakfast and my mom’s cookery pot lid. So I kept on pulling my shirt down to cover the rest of the undo part from eye view. After some distance of walk, I worked up my courage and pulled my zipper up all the way. I hope that guy did not notice . *lol* when I realized my zipper is halfway undo, I felt like hiding then . It was embarrassing.

So my day went on and there this one time of the day, I went to the toilet. After my business, of course I got out of the toilet, but right before that, I realized the toilet door isn’t lock and was slightly ajar ! When I came out I was Thanking God that no one came along and pushed the door while I was inside else, it would be a sight to see! What was worse was that my 2 male colleagues were right outside the door. Oh My Gosh can ?

It was a day of me flashing myself?

Tuesday, 6th June 2006:

Has any female ever wonder why does a guy keep stealing glances at you? If you haven’t, I don’t care!~ I wanna know why guys keep stealing glances at the female when they think the female isn’t looking and yes they know each other. Anyone can tell me?

A few of my friends, even some guy friends say it could be this guy likes the girl but daren’t tell her and keeps admiring her from a far. Some even say he lust over her *lol*. But what do you say?

Aight, I am asking this because I have this colleague whom I used to have a crushed on and he has been stealing glances at me ever since I knew him. How would I know? Well, because I stole glances at him from the mirror when he thought my back was facing him and looked at me but I saw it without him realizing .

Someone tell me… please.

Today, 7th June 2006:

The funniest thing happened today. It all started when this female colleague of mine made a remark of this male colleague (Colleague 1) who is in his twenties;
Female 1: So young yet hands shake like an old man.
Me: Ever think why a male’s hands shake so much?
My female colleague shook her head
Me: Well, I don’t know if it is true or not, but a friend of mine once said because it was too much masturbation. .
So the female colleague laughed and the guy snickered.
Me: I really don’t know, because there was once this guy from my Counter Strike group friends… we played long hours and when we had lunch together we saw his hand shaking vigorously so we asked him why does it shake so much since we played about the same length of hours in the cyber café and he answer was because he masturbated too much .
Then another colleague of my whom is slightly elderly, heard it and said out loud;
Elderly Colleague: TELL ME WHICH MALE DOESN’T MASTURBATE?
A near by male colleague went "Aiyor" and hid himself while the rest of us laughed so loud because that statement was said a tad too loud *lol*.
Me: No… Hands shake because of too much masturbation. I don’t know if it true, I was told that way.
and continued laughing.
Colleague 1: *laughs* masturbates 10 times a day?
Me: Who knows? It could be
Elderly Colleague: 10 times a day?! That one not just hand shake, leg also shake! Too weak already!
We all started laughing mad.

Wonder if my boss heard him said it so loud .

Ok… Time to end now, go shower then pack for my game tomorrow. See you all soon !~


Hoobastank ~ If I were you

[Just An Entry]

Aight… Haven’t been here for like forever now. Health is, well going down the drain. Having constant headaches and such, my friend suspects I might be diabetic *lol* and since I am constantly having dizziness, colleagues thinks I have low blood pressure. Riiiight~

Work is as usually busy. Ever since I have been encouraged by my superior to learn more of what I could, she is willing to teach she says yet I don’t seem to be doing much .

So as for my health, I went for a blood check just so I can be sure I am not diabetic, results would be out on Tuesday.

I went for X-Men 3: The Last Man Stand yesterday night. It was definitely fascinating! I wouldn’t mind watching it again. Though I have to say, they altered the original storyline from the comics or cartoons. It was a worth a watch in THX Cineplex. I so am gonna buy the DVDs .

Well, sitting here being bored out of my mind. I guess I should go find something to do. There’s nothing much to tell of now. Life is boring as of now. Might get more interesting when I begin my studies again. Will keep you update on that.

Oh sorry to those who constantly come back to check my blog to find it not updated. I will try to update more often. Though I really don’t know what to blog about anymore *lol* .

Well, see you all soon.

Nitrus ~ Kamu